I'm on unemployment now, and that should keep me from sinking entirely, but the prospects for new employment are rather grim. My resume is, for a 35 year old man, kind of shitty. There are major gaps in my employment and I've never held any job for very long nor shown evidence of any ambition toward advancement. My career has been very un-distinguished.
I have a friend who works in a retail position that he likes but is interested in a job at a credit union for which he's being interviewed. If he gets it, I may try to see if I can get in at his current job. I am also considering entering into a CNA certification program or something similar. This would require remaining on unemployment longer, which I am distinctly uncomfortable with.
Other than that specter on my back, things have been good. The extra free time afforded by being unemployed has helped me reconnect with some people, and some emotional and mental states.
I've been thinking about going out and trying to do shows and push my book but I'm fiercely averse to self-promotion, for complex and entangled reasons I don't fully comprehend and don't feel capable of articulating in any meaningful way. Still, it just feels like: I have all this TIME, and I have this BOOK, so why wouldn't I be out there telling people about it? What the hell is wrong with me?
Anyway, it's 6am, and I'm very tired.